A Fathers Grief

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First, I would like to tell everyone my child is alive and safe. But I also want everyone to know that my heart grieves for any parent who has ever lost a child or loved one or had a child in trouble with the law. There can be no comfort or release for that pain or suffering....except from a Higher power. For me, it is impossible to think otherwise. Now, as I sit here typing and see these individual letters and spaces appear on this document, my mind and heart is with anyone who has ever had to grieve for whatever the reason.

I realize pain and suffering can fluctuate according to degree. But, when your life is impacted in the blink of an eye and the agony in your soul reaches a depth to which you could never possibly imagine, it is only then that the clarity of your life can be seen for what it truly is. At that point, your pain plummets a few more notches and then, from the bowels of your life, you cry out for help. This is where I am now.

The following is an email I recently sent to someone regarding our situation:

"I hope this email finds you in good health and good spirits. I only wish I could say the same for myself.

My wife and I have an only child. An 18 year old daughter. On Sunday night, she was arrested on the Canadian side of Niagara Falls by Canadian
customs. She was alone, driving a rental car and was caught transporting three fully loaded firearms. She was arrested and is currently in
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx. She is charged with
"Constructive Possession". I don't know if there will be additional charges. She is being arraigned tomorrow at 10 am. We have been in touch
with a Detective xxxxxxxxxxx who is one of the detectives involved in this case. He has been friendly, sensitive to our suffering and tries to inform us as best he can. Understandably, he can't say much but his understanding and compassion have been a source of consolation.

Needless to say, my wife and I are shattered. It's as if our life is in suspended animation. With the grace of God we will endure. The waiting and
not knowing is the difficult part.

I know next to nothing of the American Judicial system.........and absolutely nothing of Canadian procedures. xxxxx, this is not her first offense. Most recently here in the US, she had a preliminary hearing scheduled for Feb 15 on a charge of marijuana possession, intent to deliver and there was a stolen gun involved. I posted
bail for her release and then, to make matters worse, she becomes involved in this second crime before the first offense could even be heard. Oh,
sweet bird of youth.

My mind is spinning like a top and my thinking is catastrophic. Needless to say, I am not well at the moment.

I would think being charged with transporting loaded firearms across an international border is very serious. My wife and I have been trying to
mentally prepare ourselves for what is to come.

After her arraignment tomorrow, how long will it be before a court date is set?. I would imagine 12-18 months. That is pure speculation on my part. But any information you could provide regarding times and Canadian legal
procedure may be a help.

I'm sorry to intrude on your life with my personal problems, but there may come a time when she may need an attorney and I'd like to know if your
service would be available.

Respectfully,

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This is the reason for my most posting "A Christian Story". It is only through His grace and mercy that anyone who has reached rock bottom can find the strength to endure the suffering. I pray to Jesus now, at this very moment, that anyone reading this will never, ever have to experience this pain.
 

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buddy

I feel your pain and I am sorry you are going through such a thing with your only child.

My wife and I went through several similar episodes with my step son. Not as serious but nevertheless , very worrisome. He was driving down the road in Texas and these two guys pulled up beside him at a stoplight and asked him if he knew where they could get any weed. He answers no but you can have half the joint I got left. He pulls over and sells it to them for 10 bucks. you guessed it, undercover cops with nothing better to do but bust a 20 yr old kid.

It cost us 3-4 grand for the lawyer and we ended up getting all charges dropped and it cost us extra to get it expunged permantley after a additional year passed. He paid a fine, had to go to drug classes, and did 6 mths community service.

All you can really do with your children is bring them up the best way you know how. Once they reach legal age , you just have to trust they will figure out what life is all about and go in the right direction.

Sounds to me like you had some warnings, as she must have been wrapped up with some pretty shady characters to have charges like this at such a young age. Especially if she was a patsy. If she was making the cash for herself then you really got some trouble.

Guns going across lines will bring serious charges as they can be sold for alot more than they are worth to no one knows who.

May take some tough love to get her to understand the trouble she is in. I think by now she probably gets it sitting in jail. I would not wallow in contacting her much or sending her
cookies and snacks and letters daily.

The best advice is to find the best criminal attorney you can afford to represent her. It may cost 20 grand overall for both cases.

Even though alot of us on here are degenerate gamblers, with atheists and multiple relgious ideas, we have a heart for what you are going through.

Good luck buddy. I will keep her in my prayers.

KOD
 

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Scott,

Thanks for your reply. It helps more than you could ever imagine. I realize we never met, but I pray for the day when this might happen. I'd like to shake your hand and say "Thank you" for your concern.

From a Christian perspective, my wife and I realize our daughter was swept up in a vortex of sin and is now facing the consequence of her sins.

How many times have all of us heard "The wages of sin is death". Would any of us have paid less attention if the phrase was reworded to say the wages of sin might be death? We simply thank God for His great mercy that her sins did not allow her to arrive at this destination.

I am handling this better than my wife. Please pray for her as she needs strength. My parents are both still alive. They are both in their late 80's. Please pray for them also.

My mind now exists in a supernatural realm. I pray to the Lord Jesus Christ it remains there. It is truly amazing how clearly I now see things.

"Amazing grace, how sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost,
but now and found.
Was blind but now I see."

I realize I really haven't said much about my daughter. Not that I'm ashamed or don't want to, it's just that the Lord has showed me something more profound.

Last week, while watching a Billy Graham TV classic filmed in 1973, he told the following story:

One day he saw a young boy walking in the snow. The lad was walking through the snow in an unusual way.......taking giant steps, so to speak. He asked the young boy what he was doing and the young boy said, "I'm walking in my father's footsteps".
 

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Buddy --sometimes things work mysteriously--
Reading your story made me think of what I put my parents through as a youngster--don't give up on her yet--sometimes adolecents need wake-up call to get them on correct path--hope this will be case for you and 20 years down the road you can set around the table and speak about it in --"remember when" perspective--your daughter is fortunate to have loving parents that care--
 

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buddy

OK will add your wife and the grandparents to the prayer list.

I remember several tramatic experiences I had in my life where I was in very bad trouble or almost close to death.

I turned to God and the church. It helped me through and it was the only place I felt safe and
there was hope for me.

The only thing is , is that it is easy to go overboard with religious feelings. And if you are talking to your child and bring up religion too much, you will lose her faith when she needs you most.

There will be plenty of time for God talk when you get her out of there.

You must try to level the playing field with common sense and making logical decisions.

This will not be easy.

PS - Our son now is 28 , married last year, has a good job that he loves, and expecting our first grandchild. There is light at the end of the tunnel.
 

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Scott,

For us veterans, we've been at Madjacks a long time. The "join date" is listed on each of our posts.

During this time, I think it's safe to say there has never been much mention of "Faith and Trust" except how it might apply to the outcome of a sporting event.

Oh, my! Oh, my!

Would anyone care to ask me how much I've learned about a deeper meaning of faith and trust in the past few days?

As I sit here now typing these letters and spaces, I just realized I inhaled and exhaled about twenty times without praising the Lord.

I just asked Him to forgive me.

Psalm 34:1 states "I will bless the Lord at all times: His praise shall continually be in my mouth."
 

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damn,buddy...i apologize for the skepticism....i was taken aback by your change in demeanor....

was used to the jovial,clever,funny buddy and your recent posts seemed to veer drastically from the usual buddy stuff that i always looked forward to seeing....

well,i kind of have an idea what you`re going through....my only brother died roughly a year ago.....he fell in with a rough crowd....actually was in with a bad crowd for many years..... and things finally took their toll....

my mother`s never been the same...never will be the same..she`s decompensated to the point that i took her into my home so she can be around family ...and needless to say,losing my only sibling has taken quite a toll on me.....

again,sorry for not being a little more sensitive to the situation....if only i had known........

she`s only 18...don`t give up..obviously she`s in with a bad crowd.......maybe,as dtb indicated,this is a wake-up call....

if only there were simple solutions to these things....

not being much of a church-goer myself,i`ll still say a prayer for your daughter...

your being one of the truly nice guys on this site makes me feel that much more terribly about your daughter.....

i wonder if f.lee haskell can finally make himself useful?....

edward!!!!...any advice would be greatly appreciated.....
 

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gw,

I just said a heartfelt prayer for your brother. Believe me gw, I'm not telling you something that didn't happen. When I read your reply, I removed my hands from the keyboard, clasped them together, closed my eyes, bowed my head and fervently prayed to God for your brother. I asked God to shed His grace and love upon your brother so when that day comes (as the Lord has promised) all of us who are so totally unworthy of His love would be together with Him in heaven. I also prayed for you and your mom. I prayed that God's Holy Spirit would come and comfort you in a way that only He can make possible.

Thanks for your reply gw. It meant a lot to me.
 

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Buddy if you or anyone in your family have any connections with Senator Bob Casey i would try to use them. If not maybe try writing him. Some politicians are actually good guys and he might be able to help you. Your daughter really needs to realize what she has gotten herself into. This is really sad and some very serious charges. Jeese, i thought you were just posting up a fictional story.
 

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Sponge,

Thanks for your reply. Our pastor said patience is crucial. She's safe and in one of her phone calls she said she is being well taken care of (whatever that means). The pastor also said that having someone released from prison too soon can be much worse than one could imagine. Like me, you might think, "how could that be?" But I am not in a good frame of mind and need to put my faith and trust in those who I believe are capable of guiding and giving direction. My pastor has had a prison ministry for over 25 years. I have faith and trust he knows what he's talking about.

Proverbs 3:5 states, "Trust in the Lord with your whole heart. Lean not unto thine own understanding. Acknowledge Him in all the ways and He will direct your path."
 

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Sponge,

Thanks for your reply. Our pastor said patience is crucial. She's safe and in one of her phone calls she said she is being well taken care of (whatever that means). The pastor also said that having someone released from prison too soon can be much worse than one could imagine. Like me, you might think, "how could that be?" But I am not in a good frame of mind and need to put my faith and trust in those who I believe are capable of guiding and giving direction. My pastor has had a prison ministry for over 25 years. I have faith and trust he knows what he's talking about.

Proverbs 3:5 states, "Trust in the Lord with your whole heart. Lean not unto thine own understanding. Acknowledge Him in all the ways and He will direct your path."

I to would be worried about her getting out to soon. She has to someway learn a lesson and if somehow she got off of this wrap quickly, i doubt she would stay out of trouble for very long. I know this sounds harsh but if you know she is safe i think i would let her sit there and think for awhile. If it was my kid and i knew she was safe i wouldn't even bother with her for a bit and let her start to worry. I know this would be tough but you can't become an enabler. I saw this whole show with my aunt and now dead son. Messed up big time on drugs but she became his enabler and it was the worst thing for him. He took every advantage of her he could until he finally O D. No need to pray for that creep.
 

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No need to pray for that creep.

Eight days ago I may have agreed with you. Not so now. Every person on this earth has a need for prayer.

I once watched a Catholic priest on tv talking about prayer and forgiveness. He asked if anyone in the room could pray for Osama Bin Laden? He then asked if anyone in the room could pray for someone who murdered your family?

He said God's love and forgiveness reaches that depth.

And beyond.
 
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Buddy:

If you want, get my email from Jack. Send me your phone number and I'll give you a call. Don't know any attorneys up there but may be able to make some calls.

Eddie
 

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Buddy:

I'm at home now but will be in the office tomorrow. Jack only has my office email address. If you send your number, I'll call tomorrow or tomorrow evening (before 24 at 9:00). Are you going to be in Niagara Falls for the arraignment in the morining. If so, let me know when you will be home or otherwise available to discuss your daughters legal issues.

Eddie
 

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Buddy - my best wishes to you and your family. I can't imagine the worry and grief you are going through. I'm very glad you've found something that gives you comfort and faith to help you through this.
 

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Ed,

The email I posted about my daughters situation was written nearly a week ago. Things have been updated since then. My daughter currently has legal representation through the US Consulate. We're okay and so is she.
 
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