Blue:
I'm glad to see you again. We all have our demons, character defects and shortfalls. Mine, happens to be extraordinary reasonableness and intelligence.
Seriously, your honesty in addressing the problem, your humility in accepting the problem as you own, and your intelligence to take the steps, and I might add, only steps, to correct the problem are the first steps in recovering from any addiction.
Someone else said it, one day at a time........good luck.
Ed