well fellow sportscappers, some of you know me and others do not. i have been know to go on great runs and post great fades.... but what i am most noted for is my lack of money management to an extent that most can not understand. it seems like clockwork, every yr come ncaa march madness i go on a huge run and when it ends i go on a huge downfall and that usually lasts until the next march when i repeat the process......not to say i lose everygame but if you are familliar with the stock market i am on a consistant downward trend. the same thing happened this yr, only this yr hit me the worst.....i started march madness with 400.00 and through somekind of miracle i turned it into 9000.00. well was that good enough for me.....ohhh no, since i have the gambling addiction there really is no amount that i could win and be content with, so i pressed on and evuentally lost it all but 1000.0.....so instead of keeping that i try to go on another run.......and i do bigger and better then the last....i was up to 12,000.00 from 1000.00.... i was red hot counldn't lose, it was like i was giving a second chance to have a great yr and a great summer with 12000.00 basically for free. then ncaa ended and two games in one day took me down big it was the second meeting this yr between roy halladay and pedro martinez in tor i hammered roy for roughly 2500.0 and lost, then i was sooo pissed i took sac kings su +200 vs mav's the spread was +4.5 i think and they lost by 4, i got greedy and took the money line instead of the +4.5 and i lost 2500.00 on that game.....almost half my bankroll in one day, and from that day on i went down and have remained down with the final blow lakers game five.
i am not here to cry or sob or even complain about my mishaps. i am here to hopefully say goodbye. i say hopefully becasue i need out of this lifestyle. it has been eight yrs since i started sportsgaming and i think i have about the same money i had 8 yrs ago....i never can get ahead because there is never an end, i have to play everyday and try to win amounts that are not attainable to win.
it has been one week, not a very long time but the weeks will add up and then the months and then the yrs and before long, i will not care anymore. it will be hard not saying it won't...doing something for 8 yrs on a consistant basis develops into a pattern or habbit of life, and humans resist change even if it is for the better, we dont' like to change, but however we must change in order to grow. i was close to giving in tonight becasue i really like the cle indians tongiht and then turning around and taking the w. sox tom. but i figured even if i hammer these two games and win...what will that do for me??? i will tell you what it will do, it will fuel the fire....giving me more ammo to bet and hell maybe i would turn that into another 10k??? but u know what in about 2-3 weeks whatever i won i would most likey lose, becasue i would be betting more and more games and capping all the different games becomes extremely hard to do. so instead i will not bet the tribe tongiht and will not care if they win or lose.....
i do enjoy posting on here and sharing info and making friends, it was a great experience and i know prob after a day or so i will be forgotten and that is fine, i need to forget about this lifestyle and move forward. i also need to find something else to do with my time now that i will not be gambling......in order to give up a habbit or lifestyle you must replace it with another habbit or lifestyle.
i will leave you with some quotes to help in our daily struggles............
THE PURPOSE OF LIFE IS A LIFE OF PURPOSE.
IF YOU WANT TO FEEL PROUD OF YOURSELF, YOU'VE GOT TO DO THINGS YOU CAN BE PROUD OF. FEELINGS FOLLOW ACTIONS.
EVEN WHEN PEOPLE ARE MORE SUCCESSFUL THAN THEY HAD IMAGINED, NOTHING IS EVER ACHIEVED WITHOUT GIVING SOMETHING UP.
TO REALLY ENJOY THE BETTER THINGS IN LIFE, ONE MUST FIRST HAVE EXPERIENCED THE THINGS THEY ARE BETTER THAN.
ALWAYS PUT OFF UNTIL TOMORROW WHAT YOU SHOULDN'T DO AT ALL.
BOREDOM IS SIMPLY THE LACK OF IMAGINATION.
good luck in the future everyone.....the hardest part (nfl, ncaa) is yet to come........i will try
i am not here to cry or sob or even complain about my mishaps. i am here to hopefully say goodbye. i say hopefully becasue i need out of this lifestyle. it has been eight yrs since i started sportsgaming and i think i have about the same money i had 8 yrs ago....i never can get ahead because there is never an end, i have to play everyday and try to win amounts that are not attainable to win.
it has been one week, not a very long time but the weeks will add up and then the months and then the yrs and before long, i will not care anymore. it will be hard not saying it won't...doing something for 8 yrs on a consistant basis develops into a pattern or habbit of life, and humans resist change even if it is for the better, we dont' like to change, but however we must change in order to grow. i was close to giving in tonight becasue i really like the cle indians tongiht and then turning around and taking the w. sox tom. but i figured even if i hammer these two games and win...what will that do for me??? i will tell you what it will do, it will fuel the fire....giving me more ammo to bet and hell maybe i would turn that into another 10k??? but u know what in about 2-3 weeks whatever i won i would most likey lose, becasue i would be betting more and more games and capping all the different games becomes extremely hard to do. so instead i will not bet the tribe tongiht and will not care if they win or lose.....
i do enjoy posting on here and sharing info and making friends, it was a great experience and i know prob after a day or so i will be forgotten and that is fine, i need to forget about this lifestyle and move forward. i also need to find something else to do with my time now that i will not be gambling......in order to give up a habbit or lifestyle you must replace it with another habbit or lifestyle.
i will leave you with some quotes to help in our daily struggles............
THE PURPOSE OF LIFE IS A LIFE OF PURPOSE.
IF YOU WANT TO FEEL PROUD OF YOURSELF, YOU'VE GOT TO DO THINGS YOU CAN BE PROUD OF. FEELINGS FOLLOW ACTIONS.
EVEN WHEN PEOPLE ARE MORE SUCCESSFUL THAN THEY HAD IMAGINED, NOTHING IS EVER ACHIEVED WITHOUT GIVING SOMETHING UP.
TO REALLY ENJOY THE BETTER THINGS IN LIFE, ONE MUST FIRST HAVE EXPERIENCED THE THINGS THEY ARE BETTER THAN.
ALWAYS PUT OFF UNTIL TOMORROW WHAT YOU SHOULDN'T DO AT ALL.
BOREDOM IS SIMPLY THE LACK OF IMAGINATION.
good luck in the future everyone.....the hardest part (nfl, ncaa) is yet to come........i will try
