You only get one chance to make a good impression.
If you accidentally develop a hair trigger you are going to have no one to blame but yourself.
I'm a bit disappointed. You're stubbornly not preparing yourself to perform to your best ability. As an umpire I see this shit all the time. Got the talent but not the work ethic. And then they blame a coach or some other shit as to why they don't get to play after high school, when all along they could have if they had worked harder.
FUCK THAT. I WANT TO SEE SOMEONE THAT SAYS, "HEY, I'M GOING TO GIVE HER EVERYTHING I GOT!!!" YOU STILL HAVE TIME. JACK IT, CLEAN IT, EAT A HAM SAMMICH, WINE IT, DINE IT, AND THEN FUCK HER LIKE THERE IS NO TOMORROW.
I don't want to be your life coach but, damn it, this is real to me. If you two pump and dump, I swear to every MadJacker on here that I will turn your online life into Groundhogs day by reminding you about your quick release because you didn't prep. Every damn day.
Go. Go now. Git-r-done then get her done. Good Luck Hedge.