I once read that "God hides himself in a thick darkness from the wise and prudent of this world."
If you really want to know the Holy God of Israel, the one and only true God, then YOU must seek him.
It requires a leap of faith.
You will not be disappointed.
Your choice.
Buddy,I would take a second look here brother.God has chosen many to be saved.Although we do seek,it is him who finds us.Without him finding us first it would be impossible to have a personal relationship with God.
I could give you scripture to support this,but on my way to work.You sound like your in the word,do some research.

