Sorry, just had to Vent

[bleedingpurple]

Lost 2 dear people in my life since Friday.

Friday Night my girlfriend of about 4 months ended it with me. "No more Spark" Yeah I can get over that.. What sucks is that we had been friends or 18 years before that since we were 20 and she suggested no contact and we have deleted each other out of our lives. That's how I get, I do know her email by heart but I'm not going to do it. It was her suggestion. I know it was only 4 months but I loved her for much of the 18 years.

Ok so that goes down and then Sunday I get a text from a buddy saying "Dave Smith was killed in an ATV accident" Dave is the Captain of my two softball teams who I have played with for 5 years. He started at 18 plus he is the son of a good friend of mine on top of that.

Dave was such a good kid. made the right decisions, wasnt a heavy drinker and made sure we were safe at night. Can't understand why he wasnt wearing a helmet.

So I have done nothing but flip flop between the 2 since Friday for every minute I have been awake, which has been a lot. Having trouble sleeping and eating. Fluids are staying down but been having bits of nausea. Wasn't going to post but today I had to give in.

This sucks!
http://athletics.uwstout.edu/news/2012/7/24/MTRACK_0724123418.aspx

 

[kickserv]

18 years and then "no contact", that is rough for sure. But something tells me that you two will be friends again, if you started out as friends, you will stay as friends.

Hang in there.

 

[Packers4Life]

Bleeding , really sorry for your loss and as the girl goes dont beat yourself up if you guys were friends for that long after a little time passes you will be friends again I believe. Keep your head up, again very sorry about your loss.

 

[JOSHNAUDI]

What a rough week.

Sorry for the loss of your buddy. May he Rest In Peace.

Venting some more here may help you get some more sleep and keep the food down.

 

[arrow]

BP

BP

Sorry for your loss of your softball friend. Some of the ballplayers are like brothers. The guy buying my business , his best friend lost their 5 yr. old daughter to a atv accident last week as her sister flipped it and she hit her head, also with no helmet and died hours later.Freak accidents are just terrible when they are friends of ours. The girlfriend deal is just a woman thing. Give it time and you two will come back together and remain friends unless she is a shallow or cold hearted woman.You may find out other info down the road and will understand better the current situation. Football starts soon and the Wild made some good pickups in hockey for ya. Talk soon, friends


ARROW:0008

 

[bleedingpurple]

I am really Pist at myself for allowing us to date. I think I was at a point where I had to go for it and see. The prize would of been worth it but this was a gamble I lost.
She never knew Dave, she lives an hour away and never partaked in softball activities.
She although would have been the person to get me through this or helped me.
So yeah I'm beating myself up cause we were both scared this would happen.

 

[bleedingpurple]

Thanks Arrow. Yeah football is coming, hope to
Just make money. Vikes will be 6-10 7-9

 

[bleedingpurple]

We were texting about 2 hours before his death, 2 weeks ago he was our DD for road game

 

[Mr. Poon]

Sorry for your loss and the tough time you are experiencing.

 

[Bobmac]

Trevor, I'm sorry to hear about the loss of your friend. Thoughts and prayers sent. Maybe things will work out for you and your girlfriend down the road. Keep your head up, there's plenty of support around here if you need it.

 

[bleedingpurple]

My eyes have been swollen and I need to get Visine for them cause they are starting to itch like hell.

 

[bleedingpurple]

Well thanks guys. Bob it's just not
Going to work romantically, I just hope we can be friends again. When there is no spark there is no spark. As for the no contact, I don't understand it. It was her idea and didn't plead or anything, I was like ok and she wouldn't tell me
Why

 

[bleedingpurple]

Tonight softball. Friday funeral an then softball
After. His dad owns the bar we play for So its going to be rough until the season ends

 

[hedgehog]

Keep your head up BP, sorry to hear about your friend

 

[Trampled Underfoot]

Good luck. :toast:

 

[krc]

Sorry for your loss BP

Hang in there.

 

[UGA12]

Awful news about your friend man,sorry to hear as no one should go that young. As for the ex-girlfriend, at least you now know and wont go through the rest of your life with the what ifs. Good luck getting through this as quickly as possible and vent any time!

 

[hawkeye]

It will take longer to get over your friends death than your GF leaving-believe me. GL

 

[MadJack]

Sorry for your loss.

 

[Old School]

hang tuff buddy..

remember the good times with your friend..

a babe who doesn't attend your games..

no interest in SOFTBALL...

IMHO...wrong babe for you..

like me you live and breath it..

gotta have a babe who does too..

keep your chin up..


this thing called life in a marathon..

let me know ASAP about league signup..

need to start practicing the mock drafts,,,

old and tired..and I forget alot..