Bleeding purple....sorry for your loss...thoughts and prayers are with you.....losing someone esp. a close friend who you see all the time has to be deeply painful...we all grieve differently and cope with it in different ways...what your saying here in MJ's is a normal reaction and a good outlet...showing your feelings and expressing them are important....we all have different time frames about getting over what has happened.....you have a few things on your plate with your girl friend break up,etc...you have a right to be sad,upset,down,etc...but in time things will get better....talking to friends,family,etc make it a little better..even coming here and posting...
I know you like your " Purple" but don't forget you ain't getting to the Super Bowl...because my Big Blue is going to repeat...keep your head up...good luck