Here is an email that Tina sent out to her friends today. She usually gives us an update before the next episode. We had dinner with her last night, and she is really upset with the way things have panned out on TV. Oh well, she knew this could happen going into it.
"Why, No. I am not a bitch. I just play one on tv."
Well, what to say...what to say. I learned one BIG thing from this past episode. I am totally going to be portrayed as "the bitch." I can't believe it, but I guess it had to be someone. Looks like I am going to have to embrace it with open arms and love it! My new saying is, "Why, No. I am not a bitch. I just play one on tv."
All in all, I thought the first Rose Ceremony episode was pretty good. Have you picked your favorites and the girls that you are not going to like? If I am in the latter group for you, keep it to yourself...please. There are enough people on the message boards that have decided that I will be their least favorite and they are unsure as to why in the hell I am still in the running.
So, I seemed to get a decent amount of camera time. Not GOOD camera time, but time nonetheless. My sister Josie assures me that "America always remembers the girls they hate." (Thanks, Jo. So comforting.) heehee.
A few behind the scenes notes for you:
We (the girls) loaded into the limos at 3:30pm. I was in the 5th limo (last limo.) When we actually got out of the limos that night at "the bachelor pad" it was almost 7pm. The party lasted until about 4am, giving every girl anough time to have a one-on-one with Andrew. Each 1-on-1 lasted about 2 to3 minutes. The producers asked me to go last and to bring Andrew back into the group of girls inside.
My one-on-one:
On tv, it looks as though I sat down and said, "Here's what I want...." and then threw up my plans for the next 50 years into his lap. That is not at all how it happened. We actually had a very pleasant conversation. We talked about our lives in general first, then he asked me why I was there and what I was looking for in a lifelong mate. So, I told him! Then, he told me what he was looking for as well.
At 4am, we congregated outside to take pictures, like the one you see in US Weekly. Then we moved back inside for the rose ceremony. This takes a very long time and there are about 12 cameras in the room getting every angle possible. He starts calling out names at about 4:30 and calls the last name (and, yes, he saved the best for last) at about 5:15am.
So, I know everyone was probably freaking out about me being the last one called. Now, imagine how I felt. You will never know all of the things that were going through my mind, and that is probably for the better. (There were lots of bad words in those thoughts.) Thinking back, I'm sure that the producers arranged it so that I would be the last name called because they knew that they would get a good reation out of me. Funny thing is, they cut it out of the episode. Basically, he called my name and I said, "Thank God! Don't do that!" and everyone laughed. I could almost not get my legs to work to accept the rose and when I finally got it, I wanted to hit him with it...but, I didn't.
So, another epsiode awaits us next week. Make sure to tell everyone you know that you are close personal friends with "the bitch from TN" and tell them that I REALLY AM like that in real life. (I have a bad reputation to uphold!)
After the rose ceremony, all the girls give an ITM ("in the moment" interview) whether they were cut or kept. There is a psychiatrist with the show that is at every rose ceremony. During the interview process, she told me that the girls that get cut the first night always have the hardest time with it because they feel that it is based solely on physical appearances.
The show made us (mostly me!) look very catty, but in reality, no one even knew one another yet and we were all being funny to break tension and get to know each other and pass the time. (You may have seen the scene where we are practicing our rose acceptances. That was hilarious. I wish they showed more of that!) As a matter of fact, there really wasn't anything "high school" about that first night. I heard one of the girls make a comment about that in the show, and I have no idea what she was talking about.
I am trying to answer everyone's questions that I got in e-mails, so bare with me. As far as the "extra add-ons" on some of the girls, yes, it was "silicon valley" in the beginning. But, as far as I know, there were only 2 sets of "add-ons" in the 15 girls that moved into the girls' house. And, speaking of the house, when we left the rose ceremony, we got back to our hotels at 6:45am and had to be back downstairs in the lobby to go to the girls' house at 8:30am. So, there was no sleep to be had for a good 36 hours or so, not to mention the fact the no one really slept the night before the 1st rose ceremony either. Talk about exhausted and emotionally drained!
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She also put some of her journal that she kept in the email. If anyone would like me to post it, I will.