What do you do...?

[BUCSnotYUCKS]

When you ralize that the most important thing to you is gone, and it's all your fault.

What do you do when you realize your a piece of shit?

Some people think about it, but what happens when you finally know, you really are.

:sadwave:

 

[Woodson]

Agent enters in 3, 2, 1...



Sooo, did you hit her? :0corn



Dude, seriously,

YOU LEARN FROM IT AND MOVE FORWARD...

 

[BUCSnotYUCKS]

Sooo, did you hit her? :0corn

NEVER

just alot of other things. as well as things that dont have to do with her, but just life in general.

 

[vinnie]

madjacksports/dearabby/forum/Part one :0corn

 

[Agent 0659]

You are just figuring this out? I knew it about a year ago when you took a shot and tried to freeroll the fantasy golf contest here. You acted like a complete fuckstick then, and nothing has changed as far as I can see.

But seriously, if you are having problems at home I wish you the best. Quit gambling, drinking, and smoking...log off here and go take care of it.

 

[BUCSnotYUCKS]

You are just figuring this out? I knew it about a year ago when you took a shot and tried to freeroll the fantasy golf contest here. You acted like a complete fuckstick then, and nothing has changed as far as I can see.

But seriously, if you are having problems at home I wish you the best. Quit gambling, drinking, and smoking...log off here and go take care of it.

I'm sorry for the problems I caused with that. I really am. It only verify's what I've become.

I hardly gamble anymore, have cut back on it and drinking, and I don't smoke.

The problem is with me. I've gone my entire life always unappreciative, expectant..I guess? When things go wrong, I've never accepted responsibility. I've made alot of mistakes, hurting alot of people along the way. I had someone who gave me everything I wanted, and it was never enough. I had someone who did everything for me, but it was never enough.

I've done alot of thinking lately after being put in my place. At first I was defensive...like always, because it wasn't my fault. Problem is, I've been living the last 3 years in denial, and everything I've ever done or done wrong, was my fault.

I guess they always say the hardest part is admitting you have a problem. The hardest part for me is accepting who I am or have been. Knowing all the people I've hurt and the most importantly people I've hurt are her and myself. I can only move forward, but it's so hard because I feel like that person is who I've become.

I breakdown on a daily basis. I've always told myself, no matter what, I'm going to be ok, everything will work out, it always does. However, I'm now at the point where I feel like I'm losing my mind.

:/

 

[Woodson]

Well Bucs, we've had a lot of fun in hoops.

But I can honestly say, that you aren't the guy your feeling guilty about because you already write as if the two are two seperate personalities.

People grow up through experiences. Life works that way on purpose.

You build up the wrong traits, and your decisions and outcomes reult in a break down to be rebuilt for a chance as a new man. Good Lord willing... some guys get shot, overdose, etc... so there's something your supposed to do in this world, right?

It's up to you to decide to accept the challenge of rebuilding your character and being a new man or quitting and going back to the excuses and being a victim.

I wish you the best.

 

[bleedingpurple]

I breakdown on a daily basis. I've always told myself, no matter what, I'm going to be ok, everything will work out, it always does. However, I'm now at the point where I feel like I'm losing my mind.

:/

I think this is the point that you need to see a counselor or shrink... Or find someone close to you to talk to..

 

[kneifl]

You are just figuring this out? I knew it about a year ago when you took a shot and tried to freeroll the fantasy golf contest here. You acted like a complete fuckstick then, and nothing has changed as far as I can see.

But seriously, if you are having problems at home I wish you the best. Quit gambling, drinking, and smoking...log off here and go take care of it.

Good Lord you're a complete fucking douche bag, and there's no doubt about you being a TOOL. Everyone here knew that a long fucking time ago.

BUCSnotYUCKS:

I wish you the best. Woody gave some solid advice, learn from it and move forward. Be a positive forward thinker too, I think that helps a lot.

Best of luck!

kneifl

 

[BUCSnotYUCKS]

I appreciate everyones thoughts. I've always considered Woodson a good "friend," even though we don't know each other.

Agents comments dont bother me because I've heard them before, but I've always just ignored them, or refused to believe it -- pointing the finger elsewhere. I need to turn a new leaf and get to the point where I hold myself accountable and accept responsibilty.

It's just so hard to let go of the past and the things I did. I guess moving on from it is the hardest.

Every morning I wake up and feel refreshed. Then as the day goes by I think....and think....and think...and it saddens me.

She meant the world to me, but I didn't appreciate her. I know you live and learn. We were together for 3 years, I know, doesn't sound enitrely long, but when you put everything into context, that's a long time...especially considering my age. Every chance I had to make everything right, I made worse. Now I'm paying the concequences.

I have no college degree. I quit school. I stop and just look at the world, and wonder what's in store for me. I have no goals, only "dreams" or "admirations" but what good does that do me without a plan or any goals?

 

[gardenweasel]

if you don`t mind my asking,how old are you,bucs?....

 

[Woodson]

Well, Bucs.

There's one reason to get back on the horse right there. So it is over with this girl now. Could be forever. But one of the reasons, I can assure you is that you can't be happy with someone until you are happy with yourself.

I have been down this road before buddy.

I don't know if your religious or spiritual but life is about recognizing your mistakes and making them right in you and your character, not some girl.


I know work has been tough, and with that comes financial pressure, stress, and reality of what lies ahead.

It's a hard road but don't get down.

Self pity is the gateway to a destructive life.


Get me email from Jack if you want to shoot the shit on the phone this weekend.

I'm grounded so I'm not doing anything, lol. :mj06:

 

[no pepper]

Dude, you are 24 years old. This is the time in a young man's life to explore, party, immerse yourself in earthly pleasures and pursuits. And by 'party' I don't mean drink a 12 pack while you post up in the 'in game' thread on the website. Get out of the house, go to some different spots.

Take a trip to Amsterdam or the mountains or something. Maybe there is more to this story, yet I don't think your feelings are shrinkworthy. You just need to open the windows and let the fresh air in. If you go to a psychiatrist he/she will try to convince you of the need for long term care. This feeling is more universal than you think. Why do you think there are a million songs about lost love; hopes are fucking dashed man, but you got to roll with it.

Chick wounds always heal in time. Besides, maybe you hook back up with her down the road. Even four years from now you are only 28. Live it up, smile, turn off the TV and drive to somewhere for the weekend. Everythings gonna be all right.

 

[Woodson]

Bucs!

For Sakes a live, I thought you were my age.


Go get laid. Your 24?!

Go back to school and finish... Crimminy.

There's hope yet... :00hour

 

[gardenweasel]

Dude, you are 24 years old. This is the time in a young man's life to explore, party, immerse yourself in earthly pleasures and pursuits. And by 'party' I don't mean drink a 12 pack while you post up in the 'in game' thread on the website. Get out of the house, go to some different spots.

Take a trip to Amsterdam or the mountains or something. Maybe there is more to this story, yet I don't think your feelings are shrinkworthy. You just need to open the windows and let the fresh air in. If you go to a psychiatrist he/she will try to convince you of the need for long term care. This feeling is more universal than you think. Why do you think there are a million songs about lost love; hopes are fucking dashed man, but you got to roll with it.

Chick wounds always heal in time. Besides, maybe you hook back up with her down the road. Even four years from now you are only 28. Live it up, smile, turn off the TV and drive to somewhere for the weekend. Everythings gonna be all right.

24?..C`MON MAN!..EXACTLY WHAT PEPPER SAID...

//..you should be called dr. pepper.....excellent panel.........well done...

 

[luvmy$$$]

24, Awwwwwwwwwwwww fawk....:scared 24, shit man, I thought you were mid to upper 30's. Go get some pooty tang. Melt the credit card an hit vegas for the weekend, 24, man you crack me up. Your just a little puppy, thats cute...:kiss: For real though, you don't have to worry about serious relationships until you turn at least, oh about, 25 1/2, Muahahahahaha. :mj07:

 

[hedgehog]

counseling, learn from your mistakes and move on

 

[spartan]

Dude you're 24 not 34 or 44 get loose and go have fun.
I only wish I was 24 again I would be trying to hook in all that great pussy that's out there :00hour
Don't ever feel sorry for yourself go enjoy life and chin up brother.

 

[The Joker]

24, Awwwwwwwwwwwww fawk....:scared 24, shit man, I thought you were mid to upper 30's. Go get some pooty tang.

While this is funny - it is true. You really can't understand at that age that the quote above is soooooo fucking true. You just don't get it. It is good that you are on this board though.

You have just been given the best advice by a guy who calls himself luvmy$$$. I am VERY serious when I say his advice - really is stellar. While you may not do that exact thing......you get the point. Maybe.

 

[lawtchan]

Bucs.....I can't even remember when I was 24



...let's see that was 1992...:scared :scared wtf..i'm' aging...


get out there and go balls deep in some poon....

24...man, i wish i had those years back....to re-live:00hour :SIB :mj06: :mj06:

greatest years of your life...move forward and don't look back...

start over TODAY and don't look back...think before you act....learn from mistakes.....

it's Friday night....get out of bed...off the couch...whatever and LIVE!!!!