Bad News.... I don't know what to say

[AzRusty]

I'm too tired and crazy to write this up so I am just going to cut and paste most of an email that I sent to Fletcher awhile ago.

I am a little bit crazy tonight. I just up and left work when Kathy told me that "it's back". I started crying so hard I thought I was going to puke. Had one patient actually there and two on the way.

I told my male Hispanic CA what was going on and that I was outa there. Help me out and deal with it. I just can't be here and I have to get home to Kathy.

Scary as hell to see her relapse after the bone marrow transplant. Now they will give her more chemo. She will get sick as hell again and near ****ing death. Then they will try to find an unrelated matched donor. Kathy is 100 percent third generation Japanese American. Family comes from Wakayama province.. some podunk farming community in the north (Japan) somewhere.

Relatatives that had emigrated to America before WWII that were given the option of returning to Japan and did so went back to Tokyo not Wakayama. Kathy's Mom's side of the family was all pretty much incinerated in Nagasaki.

Family surnames are:

Father...........Minato
Mother...... Takesuye

For some reason the doctors are not even interested in testing Kathy's daughter or her cousins. Not sure how all this shit works. I do know that they will be accessing the world wide database..... Like looking in a ****ing haystack but it's the best we've got. They can do another autologous transplant but the odds are not good the second time around for a cure..but will be worth it to buy some time.

Thanks


Probably some typos in the above but at least you get the picture. I really don't know what to say. We've been doing this shit for 14 months now. Now we get to start over?

I don't WANT to start over!

Dammit!

AzRusty


Original Message to Eric which I think said it rather more succinctly

Kathy had a bone marrow biopsy yesterday.

The leukemia has come back.

Goes back in the hospital on Monday for a month of chemo... hoping to get her into complete remission again.

Goal is to find an unrelated matched donor for an allogenic bone marrow transplant.

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[BahamaMama]

So sorry to hear this AZ Prayers out to you and yours, just keep in mind they fixed it before, and they'll fix it again this time and even better. (the practice makes perfect theory) If only they could find a way to take the nausea and sickness out of the chemo!! Go Get 'Em Kathy....show them all your tougher than lukemia could ever be!

 

[hellah10]

sorry to hear that bro. Thoughts and prayers are with you and Kathy....Iam sure Kathy will be fine if she beat it once, she can do it again

Good Luck to you and Kathy

 

[ddubs]

So sorry to hear that it's come back. My family's thoughts and prayers are with you and Kathy.

If I remember correctly, possible donors for an allogeneic transplant need to be either siblings, or unrelated to Kathy. I don't remember why that is, but that would be an excellent question to ask your Hematologist/Oncologist.

Gotta keep the faith. You've only lost a battle, not the war. There're success stories all over, so keep your chin up, as Kathy will need your support more than ever.

 

[UT-Longhorn]

Sorry bro, yall will definately be in my prayers.........I have been where you have been, and I know what your going thru......if you need anything, dont hesitate to drop me a line.........

 

[ctownguy]

AZ & Kathy

Hang tough you two, I can only imagine what you both must be going thru. As everyone as stated above, you have beat it once, so gather all your strength from each other and focus it all on beating this again.

You both can be sure of one thing, you not only have each other, but everyone on this forum pulling for you.

May God Bless you both.

 

[Hamster]

Thoughts and prayers to Kathy and to AZ.

 

[kcwolf]

Kathy & AZ

Another MJ family member who needs to tell you that you will be in my thoughts everyday.

This news sure puts me in my place this Saturday morning. Try and stay strong.

kcwolf & family

 

[Shack]

Hang in there, AZ. Our prayers are with you and Kathy.

 

[djv]

AZ my friend as we always learn. Nothing is nothing with out your health. Remember what we talked about a year or so back. Three times this nasty nasty cancer has returned with Pat. But she just kept fighting and is now been clear of it for 31 months. Kathy is strong and a fighter. There is hope. Hang in there and give her our best. We will have you in our prayers and thoughts.

 

[TIME TO MAKE $$$]

Stay strong...

Kindest Regards

TTM$,

God Bless

 

[ferdville]

AZ - thoughts and prayers are with you.

 

[Mickey's Picks]

I have been down this road within my own family AZ and can vouch first hand that it is a terrible thing. We were presented with a hopeless situation..... that is not the case for you. Welcome the chance you have to still be able to fight and win your battle.

 

[Palmetto Pimp]

Truly sorry to hear the bad news, remember time heals all.

 

[1837]

I just stop by and saw your post... Hang on my friend. Your wife will need your support. My prayers are with you.

 

[MadJack]

hang in there, stay positive, and remain strong. that's the only way. my prayers are with you and cathy.

 

[taoist]

...sorry to hear that. stay strong, my friend. my thoughts and prayers are with you and kathy.

 

[AzRusty]

Thanks for the kind replies

Thanks for the kind replies

I was very embarrassed at my office the other day after talking to Kathy on the phone and just totally losing it with one patient in the office and two on the way.

I was able to sorta kinda pretend to be having a coughing fit or allergy attack until the one patient left. But after they left I just couldn't pull it together.

I have a male macho young Hispanic chiropractic assistant who works with me in the afternoons. I just said.. I can't really talk about this but have to get the hell outa here. Sorry.. just handle the rest of the day please and I'll talk to you in the morning.. Saturday.

He had been in the restroom and I was bawling back in my office hoping her coudn't hear me. So I took off knowing that at least the office would be ok for a few hours without me. It was about 3:30 PM and we close at 6 PM.

Next day, Saturday, I was able to pull it together enough to just get to work. Had a great half day and left for home. As I was leaving I needed to talk to him a little bit about what was going on so he would at least understand. I told him what I could.

All he had to say was .. I know Doc. Already knew. Wasn't that hard to figure out at all. We are here for you ( I have two other employees)

As I left he said. Tore me up hearing you yesterday. (I didn't know he had and hoped he hadn't). As I left he just said.

Just remember Doc. Grown men cry!

I guess so.

Love to all my friends here.

It's Sunday afternoon and we are waiting to hear of availabilty of a room for Kathy tomorrow. Don't know how tomorrow will go when or how we will do it and still try to work. But I'm sure it will work out.

She has a great group of doctors.....who I had hoped with all my heart that I would NEVER see again.

AzRusty

Randy

 

[GOAT]

Thinking of you two- God Bless.

 

[Hooks]

Come on Kathy, kick the crap out of it once and for all,:firing: :firing:

We're all behind you.